the ex effect

i've always found encountering an ex-girlfriend to be a strange situation. i guess it's hard for me to understand two people who once shared a romance together are now nothing more but mere strangers. the joys, the heartaches, the times spent together from a past once cherished are now but a broken recollection of events, only to be reminisced through a fading memory. i try my best to think of people in a good light while not focusing too much on impurities. i'm not entirely sure how my brain works; how some things i can remember vividly like it happened yesterday while other things are a complete blank. what i do know is that when i actually do run into an old flame, i can only remember good things about her. i guess it's just my way of making peace with our past situation or what's left of it. truthfully, i was really confused at first and did not know what to make of it. why can i only remember good things about her and our relationship when knowingly there were some rocky roads? i wasn't sure if i just had a poor memory...or if my feelings were getting rekindled...or simply if i just wanted to bump uglies again for old time's sake.

i do know now. sorta. there is a saying out there, which is "to forgive but never forget". somehow, i've always managed to do both: to forgive and to forget. as corny as it sounds, deep down inside, each of my ex-girlfriends have a special place in my heart. be not mistaken, there is no room in my heart for hate.

finally, after all that introspection, i've come to the conclusion that it is useless to be bitter about a past relationship. i once had an ex-girlfriend who knew me inside and out; i mean literally can predict what i was gonna do before i even did it, which was creepy at times. regardless, i don't think i could ever genuinely hate someone who was that close to me before. in the end or in the beginning or whatever, we're all in it for the love. sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.